I am sooooooooo tiredddddddd....i dnt understand wats wrong with me..

im havin trouble sleepin...wich means i cnt wake up on time, which then results in me arrivin at work late EVERYDAY!!!

uff its sooo cold....n im wasting time sittin in front of the tv....watchin banoo mai teri dulhann...loool...its soooo overdramatic!!! just watchin it for the sake of it cos mum n dad are sat here :)

think i might head off to bed soon...

work was pretty quiet today..i think im REALLY losing patience with people nowadays..i cant take it anymore!!! really takes the pee!!! uffff!!! i dont mean people i work with....i mean the people that call in to make donations/enquiries....sometimes i feel like they speak to me as if im stupid...n others...its like i think to myself...how many bl**dy times do i have to say something!!?? its like they just arent paying attention....as if that wasnt already the case in real life with people face to face...it is now also the case with people over the phone!!! aarrgghhh!!!! :(

im gettin annoyd cos im thinkin of doin a course...but cant seem to find the right things...im soooo crap at lookin for things on the internet...lol...im a bit useless...

Works kinda stressin me out...its nt like ive got loads to do...but jus seems to be drivin me mad....ive been made temporary supervisor cos T's gone on annual leave...i stupidly really upset her before she went...i REALLY didnt intend to upset her...it jus kinda happend..n i still feel quite guilty/upset abt it...cos it really shudnt have happened...especially considerin shes like a sis to me... :( hope she cmes bak from her leave n things are okay inshaAllah...

otherwise things are k alhamdulillah...things are goin well... :)

anyways...im off..

nitey nite xxx

okay...so i was a bit of a drama queen in the last blog...well i really did think i'd thrown it all down the loo in an instant...lol...but alhamdulillah that wasnt the case...so me is a lil happy happy...

still ill...which i do not not notttt like!! went to emergency GP the otha day...lmao...they were crap..if anything the doctor scared the crap outa me by sayin i cud hav TB! lol...oh as well as spelling my name in suchhh a stupid way...wich i was REALLY annoyed abt cos i spelt my name over the phone PHONETICALLY!!! so how the hell can u get M for mother and N for november mixed up and A for Alpha and E for Echo wrong!? i wanted to slap em!!!

ive spent a lot of time today applying for jobs...need a change in my life and soon...gettin a lil bit sick of the same thing....inshaAllah hope whatever happens happens for the best....ppl readin this...make duaa!! :)

 

anywayyyyyyyy...

im gna go nw...

xxxx

im tired...ill n depressed...cant believe i was so stupid...if i had sent one email ONE email...i wouldnt b feelin this low right now...

wont be surprised if i get kicked outa work on monday...im such a bloody genius (!)...well done me(!)...

i dnt wana go into details...but lets just say ive effed up BIG TIME n knowin my manager...it might just be a good excuse to get rid of me...

 

i wanted to blog today after ages...n thought it'd b a nice one...but then checked work emails n things went downhill from there...

 

Its been a good three months since my last entry...why?..well cos work seems to have taken over my life...and i hardly cme online nw...

Went for Hajj in December...so thats another month gone...n been living eating n breathing work since i got back...so much so that im still not fully recovered from it...

 

anyway...im nt in the mood nw...so maybe sum other time..

 

xx