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    April 28

    aarrgghh

    msn messenger is reaaallllyyyy annoyin me today!
    this blog gonna b short...
    me tired...was out till abt half 11ish...went shoppin n then chillin wit tessa in the evenin...before that....went out for lunch wit tessa n sobi...
    days been pretty good.... was a little hyper earlier on...lol...more like bouncin off the walls...
    was so active decided to start packin...woohoo...am goin home in 5 weeks.... got a call from maz n jiju too *big grin* lol...think i talked too much n maz jus listened....jiju scared the crap outa me..was like "this is max calling" like wat on earth? lol
    anyways... goin rosetta in the mornin inshaAllah i think
    so till next time
    xxxxx
    April 26

    cant think....

    right now....not sure hw im feelin....a little lost i think...and a little tired.... a little sick too..... i did the cookin n i HATE cookin....made jacket potatos...*big grin*....lol...they taste okay...but im jus not enjoyin the taste...
    was thinkin abt makin a phone call...not got nuff credit tho...n if i use the net to call....i'll get like a minute or sumthin....cos its to a mobile...maybe i wont call....im gna get into a lotta trouble for spendin too much on my phone....tutz...
    neways...not much else happnin....not feelin too well....think im still tryna get over the travel thing....plus been gettin real bad headaches n earaches....n throat was hurtin too.....its all this wisdom teeth thing....is a crappy feeling....but inshaAllah hope i'll b okay soon....
    missin home at the moment...kno i shudnt....but feel kinda down... jus thinkin i wanna go home bak to things as they were...n not havin to worry abt ppl here...n jus goin bak 2 MY life...as it was... i miss my friends...n family...cant wait to see maz wen i get bak...she shud b there by the time im back... but at the same time...kno things arent gna b the same...
    oh well...
    think thats enuff for today...
    xx
    April 25

    ~~~Each Breath~~~

    nice poem.....

    ~~~Each Breath~~~

    Am I truly grateful for each breath that I take..

    For each and every moment that I am awake?

    Do I thank Allah for my restful sleep,

    And for the dreams that cause me to weep?

    Am I honestly thankful to the Almighty One,

    For the early morning mist, the bright, rising sun?

    During Fajr prayer, I use my soft prayer mat,

    As Allah’s servant, do I appreciate that?..

    Throughout the day, do I realize,

    That Allah, All knowing and the Most Wise..

    Gives me what I need and so much more..

    And that I have so much to be grateful for?..

    A grandmother’s love, a book of hadith,

    The clothes that I wear, the food that I eat..

    The book that I should follow, the Holy Quran,.

    Promoting the good and ending the wrong..

    So I must ask myself every beautiful day,

    Am I truly grateful for each breath that I take,

    For each and every moment that I am awake?

    Do I thank Allah for my restful sleep,

    And for the dreams that cause me to weep?

     

     By Ibn-e-Malik

    Courtesy: www.everymuslim.com

    im baak!

    lol...hello n welcme back....im back once again after another looooong weekend!!
    well.. we left for Luxor on friday..friday evening i think... yeh....n it was a loooooong journey there...mustve been abt 14hrs..cos like it took four hrs jus to get to cairo n then god-knows hw much longer to get to Luxor... i think we got there around 8ish (cant remember as my memory fails me n i was totally knackerd!)
    anyways...so...i slept for a little while n then we decided to venture out a little... ended up near the river...cos we wanted to go to the Valley of the Kings and a few other things on the western side of the Nile...
    we came accross this dude (who is extremely annoying n keeps callin eva since we gave him our numbers) who took us accross the river for free n then told us that he had a taxi wich we cud rent out for LE 100 each.... we thot ok... seems like a decent price...but now that we think abt it... wasnt realy...cos we thot that it was including tour guide.... but it was jus him takin us around to places... we had to pay our own separate entrance fees and tour guides (if we wanted em)....
    it takes the pee...cos like u cant really understand wat ur lookin at unless u hav a well trained and studies tour guide... really felt like that at valley if the kings... i cud jus about make out wat each tomb was about wit the little information i already knew from before.... but i guess that wasnt enuff...i gotta read more abt egyptian history!!
    anyways.... yeh...so valley of the kings... was interesting...cos of all the heiroglyphics n stuff.. but like at the same time, dont feel completely satisified having gone there...but it was interestin all the same...
    we got out from that area n there were a few tourist shops.... bought sum postcards!
    then we went to sum temple...but only saw it from the outside....didnt bother gettin tickets to go in.... didnt really wanna.....
    then went to.... umm think it was another temple.... of ramses the 3rd... that was better...cos we had this guy show us around n tell us a little about wat the heiroglyphs n stuff were about....like all abt offerings to the gods like anubis n horus n khnum.... quite interestin stuff... jus werent sure exactly wat these offerings were for...lol... there wasnt really enuff information to gather all that....
    dnt think we went anywher else afta that...we ate...prayed n went back to the east bank of the nile... from there... we went to Luxor temple and cos i wasnt feelin too good... we went back to the hotel.... (the only reason i wasnt well was cos we'd had too much sun.... was still tired from last week as didnt really rest much wen we got back and...well dehydration i guess!)
    so....cos we were too tired.... we decided not to go to the sound n light show at Karnac temple...altho it wudve been nice to see....but was too tired...so we decided to jus go n eat....n tessa had recommended a nice hotel to chill out in..so we were gna go there afta eatin.....
    lol...that didnt happen tho.... after we'd eaten.... we thot we'd hav a lil look around the souks...n ended up spendin all our time in 2 shops....lol....they guy that was in the perfume shop was well sweet....lol sobi kept teasin me abt him....grrr! (no more details...lol)
    wat did we do afta that....oh yeh....went for a walk....thot we'd go see wat this winter palace place was all about....looked a little tooo posh...so turned back n went to the hotel....n....slept!lol
    next mornin we got up early cos we had to catch the train to aswan..... we got there for 9 to get the 9:15 train....the bloody thing was an hr n a quarter late!!!...
    we got to aswan... booked a hotel room....n excursions around....well..a falucca ride and a coupla toursity things...we went for the falucca ride....the guy that was the "captain" was kinda scary...lol... its amazing to see the difference btween ppl in luxor n aswan (upper egypt) and places like cairo n alexandria (lower egypt)....like..i guess thats cos upper egypt is closer to sudan...so their skin tones are a lot darker and facial features are a lot more african....whereas in places like alex n cairo...no1 is really purely egyptian cos of all the mixing between romans n greeks n stuff....!
    ok...so...from the boat....we went to elephantine island....wich is so called cos of the big boulders around which supposedly look like/ represent elephants (who'd-a-thunk it!lol) ... we checked out the museum there....n then the temple ruins (yes yes...loadsa temples...its all part of the egyptian history!) n then went to the nubian village...n bought a coupla things....
    afta the village didnt hav much time....so cudnt go to the botanical island....so jus spent sum time sailing on the boat...watched the sun set n went back to the hotel....
    killed a cockroach in the hotel! lol...n prayed...then set off to find a place to eat...we were hungryyyyy..hadnt eaten since breakfast in luxor!....so went n had pizza! yum!....then decided to look around the shops near the train station...went to a few...its so funny...cos like as soon as we walk in....all u can hear is "...missry....arab...sa'udiyyah..." lol...theyre all tryna guess where we're from.... cos supposedly i look egyptian...n cos sobi wears niqaab...shes assumed to be saudi....its sooo funny....cos then they cme n ask....n then we're like "ingilterra" n they sooo dnt wana beleive us....i love the way they go "wallahi" lol...they sound sooooo amazed! lol!!! n then its like a hundred questions abt wether we're arab in any way n then we hav to tell em we're indian/pakistani.....its quite fun.....its cos theyre not used to tourists that dnt look foreign!lol....
    we ended up in this shop....n the guy jus wudnt let us go...lol... he was like talkin to us....n continuously handin us things as "presents" bless him.... by the end of it we were soooo tired.. and bein bitten by bugs...we jus wanted to get outa there asap!....
    we got bak to the hotel abt 11ish....n dint get to sleep till afta 12:30....n had to b up again by 3 cos we had to leave early for abu simbel in the mornin!....
    3am..wake up call..jus dint wana get outa bed....but did...in the end dint get time to hav a cuppa tea or anythin...we were jus rushed outa the hotel to the minibus....n it was crazy....we had to wait aaaages cos theres sum kinda ruling about bein escorted by tourism police or sumthin...so we cudnt go till all the coaches to abu simbel were ready.....
    abu simbel was abt 3hrs from aswan..... it was nice tho...n totally worth goin to...altho i felt sobi wasnt particularly impressed....lol....
    afta abu simbel was the high dam n then the philae temple....there was this funny australian guy wit us....cudnt stop laffin at his attempts..."jakran" lolllllllll.... instead of "shukran".... he was funnnyyy n had this cool peircing under his lip!...
    anyways...from there.... we went to "the unfinished obelisk" or sumthin.... wich we cudnt b bothered to see..as well as we were stresin abt missin our train...so left the coach...took a taxi to train station...got sum pizza..n back on the train to alex.....n here i am....bloggin away....
    n i think thats all there is to say....
    oh actually...one last thing.... we were in the train wen i got a txt askin if i was okay....there were bomb blasts in dahab... got well scared cos tessa was there...but alhamdulillah they'd left jus ten minutes before the blasts...n to think that they were jus there wher the blasts had happend....its scary!!....
    prayers n condolences to the families of those who were killed or got hurt
    xxxxxxx
    April 19

    if *ur* readin this....

    dnt kno if *u* still read these.... guess *u* mite b busy....jus wana let *u* kno that i miss *u*
    xx

    ooh lol

    jus realised....that was one loooooooooooong blog! oh well...
    theres more wher that came from....got more travels comin up...hehehe
    xxxxxxx

    gulliver's...no...MY travels!

    lol... yeh i kno....sad humour in the title...wat can i say? dry sense of humour..lol...
    well wher do i start wen it cmes to the weekend that jus flew by? omg subhanAllah i gotta say i saw sum of the best things n it jus really makes u think.... hw can there not b a creator of the world? it cant jus hav cme about by chance!
    lemme start wit friday.. we left pretty early in the mornin for fayyoum...took the train to cairo n then from there took a mashroo' (service bus) to fayyoum!lol who'd hav thunk travel cud b so cheap! was like 21 egyptian from alex to cairo n then 7 egyptian to fayyoum! (all togetha that works out to be abt £3 give or take!lol!) we got to fayyoum n werent too sure wat to do... were hungry so asked the mashroo' driver if he cud recommend sumwher...he gave the taxi driver sum instructions n we were taken to a nice lil restaurant wher we ate n tried to decide wat we were gona do.... we thot we'd go to a place called waadi raiyan... n lake qaroun.... 1st we went to qaroun...asked the taxi driver abr raiyan...he said taxis dnt go ther... n if we get dropped off there then he'll hav to wait for us n take us bak cos u cant get taxis from there... woah was that a scary thot..so we decided to stay in qaroun a while... went to the tourist office... he said most places wud b closed by then...it was only like 2:30 in the aftanoon! n we thot wat the hell? so ended up jus chillin in a cafe for a while... it was boiling hot n we jus dint really feel like doin much... we then decided to take a lil boat ride on the lake.... was nice... still pretty hot day...but dint hav much else to do...we decided we'd leave early the next mornin for waadi raiyan n cme bak 2 fayyoum n then go on from there to bahariyyah....
    so... from qaroun.. we wernt sure hw to get bak.. ended up takin sum sorta service bus wit a coupla kids....they were funny...n sweet..n then tessa freaked me out by tellin me that sum old guy that got onto the bus was starin at me n asked one of the kids abt me! eugh!! freaked me out so bad i refused to look at anyone!! bleugh!!!
    we got bak to fayyoum city n went lookin for a hotel.. then tessa wasnt feelin too good so me n sobi decided to do a little lookin around n maybe get sum food to munch on... lol.. we were told whereva we go we gotta b followed by the tourist police....funny concept... but i think its for the safety of the tourists....
    so... yeh... went n did a little shoppin..got sum fruit n drinks n munchies for our travels... got bak to the hotel, ate.. n then had a coupla encounters wit cockroaches! eekk!! i wudnt stop squealing! lol.. think tessa got annoyed wit me! lol... i kept tryin to wack the things wit the ashtray..wich didnt really work!! lol!then super sobi went n killed em! lol... i cudnt do that! they ickyyyyy!
    anyways...so we slept..n then woke up for fajr....dint sleep too well cos it was too hot n the air conditioning made the most horrid noise!!! kept us all up for quite a while!!! was very annoying!!!
    okie...so...the next mornin we decided to check outa the hotel n make our way to waadi raiyan....once again we were followed or in a nicer term "escorted" by the tourist police all the way to waadi raiyan and back... it was an okay trip i guess... there wasnt really much to see... it was a large lake wher u can go boating on and a coupla waterfalls n it was completely packed out with egyptians who'd gone there for a day out...omg was it crazy...they wre all singin n dancin n jumpin the waterfalls...omg was madness! lol.... we went on a boat ride there too... there wasnt much else to do!! lol!
    okie...so afta all that... we were taken back to fayyoum central....to the mashroo' station n took a mashroo' back to cairo wher we said bye to tessa n made our way to the coach station to catch the next coach to bahariyyah...
    got to the coach station...had abt half an hr to spare..went to a nearby masjid n prayed...also cleaned out as much sand as i could outa my socks...my trainers are so crappy i keep gettin sand in em....eugh...my socks actually went a little orange cos of em! eugh!....neways...got back to the coach station jus in time for the coach n embarked upon our journey to bahariyyah... the coach left at 6pm n it was a 6hr journey....well just about...was tiring....but alhamdulillah it went okay...slept a while n dint do much else....
    got to bahariyyah...well the place was called bawiti n as soon as we got off the coach we were hounded by a group of guys tryin to get us to chek into the hotels they were representing... omg was it crazy....cudnt think cos all they were doin was tryin to shove pieces of paper... business cards n the like into our faces tryin to convince us that their hotel was best.... in the end decided to follow this dude.... his names in the travel books.... he even knew wher his name was located in there! lol... so went to see this hotel... the old oasis.. was nice... but we wanted to see wat else was on offer... as soon as we said we wantd to see the otha hotel....this dude gets in a huff...lol, n i thot women were moody!.... so we goes n chek out this otha hotel... okay.. old oasis was a lot nicer.... theres a lotta bugs tho... these icky blood sucking things....eeewww.... n mosquitos!!!.... anyways... we chekd into the hotel n tried to sort out the next day....main things to see are things like the black n white desert (old and new) and crystal mountain.. as well as that..campin out in the white desert for a night and then off to farafra.. was kinda pricey but definitely worth it! (details follow shortly...)
    now..so.. we sorted out the stuff... we didnt wana pay too much... but wen the guy agreed to a lesser price he said food wasnt included...nw we werent sure hw we'd get food..so we agreed to the slightly higher price.... oh well...nothings cheap right...
    so.... we were pretty knackered ... went to sleep n were up for abt 9ish so we cud do a lil tour of the town and then set off for the safari.... we didnt end up leavin till abt 12 cos there was a tent missin or sumthin n then one of the guys with us on the trip needed to pick up sum things... yes it was jus me n sobia wit 2 guys from the hotel.... one was the hotel owners son (who was only 18!) and sum older guy who i think works there n might b related to them in sum way.....ooh before that we went to chek out this artists gallery thingy... her paintings were quite nice....:)
    anyways..onto the safari.... it was weird cos communication was a little tough.... they only seemd to speak the egyptian colloquial n we only hav limited vocab...but alhamdulillah the younger one (whos name i think was sumthin like aslam) knew sum english.... so it was okay....
    1st stop was the black desert... a few lil mountain thingys or sumthin... we stopped off at one, took photos n went on.... onto crystal mountain! mashaAllah that was beautiful! the rocks proper shimmered like diamonds in the sun and there was this really cool archway like thing that was naturally created there... was so pretty..and i nicked a stone! lol...
    from there we went onto the agabaat which literally means things that are weird or fascinatin...in arabic the one word ajeeb which in egypt is pronounced ageeb means sumthin that can be weird or wonderfully fascinating.... so yeh...thats wat these things were.... like weird shaped rocks n stuff...jus formed naturally...i think this was in the old white desert... we also went to see a cave in one of them (i was too scared to actually climb all the way up,lol).... in the sand...lol... the 4wheel drive...was funny... cos it was quite a bumpy ride i kept fallin all over the place...n kept laffin..lol....so mister aslam decided to be a little cheeky n do it on purpose....lol! it was funny n he had this really cheeky look on his face! lol!....
    oh i forgot...before that i think we had lunch... it was sweet cos i didnt think they'd actually make lunch for us... lol...it was quite simple stuff tho.... tuna... tuna wit onions...cucumbers... this smelly cheese thingy...n a salad made wit the smelly cheese...with bread! lol.... oh well.. it was betta than nothin....n simple food is always good!!! sobi dint wana believe me wen i told her they'd probably cook us dinner!! (lol that follows shortly too!)
    anyways... from the old white desert we went onto the new white desert... the thing is... in both white deserts ther are rock formations....ones that may look like animals...n others that resemble mushrooms! there was one that looked like a chicken...n a few that lookd like fish and i swer sum of em looked like pharaonic faces...but im not sure!!.... so... yeh.. we saw these rocks... n then parked up the 4by4 and set up camp.... we had a coupla lil tents behind a quite pretty lookin rock and a lil fire was set up too.... was quite nice n cosy....
    nearing maghrib time.... we went behind anotha rock to pray... n watched the sun set too.... it was strangely calming and jus hearing sobi recite surah-al-mulk....really touched me...like as well as praying... the words realy make u apreciate Allahs creation....n its so true...like theres the lines that say...And He is the All Mighty, the Oft Forgiving Who has created the seven heavens one above another; you can see no fault in the creation of the Most Gracious, Then look again, can you see any rifts? Then look again and yet again your sight will return to you in a state of humiliation and worn out!....
    and thats sooooo true.... seriously....i jus cudnt get enough of any of it!! i jus cudnt stop lookin out... into the desert....n wen it got darker...into the sky.... starin at the stars...the moon....ans jus feelin like each time i looked into the sky....into the horizon...that it jus wasnt enough....like i had to keep lookin again n again....wanting to see everything but not bein able to..cos as it says "and yet again your sight will return to you in a state of humiliation and worn out".....
    the guys cooked...well not aslam..he was too busy on the rock... wher there was phone network (the only place in the desert,lol) he was on the phone....n me n sobi sat n listened to some Qur'an on our mp3 playas n jus appreciated evrything....
    for dinner we had, chicken, rice, potatoes, salad....n mashaAllah it was really well cooked! jus couldnt eat much.... that was partly cos i was dyin to go to the loo....and there was noooo way i was gona relieve myself in the desert behind a rock! and also cos we'd had two cups of tea...which were very nice.. i think they were both mint...but bedouin style.....quite strong and quite sweet! but nice....!
    so.... we ate...n it was really sweet, cos sobi wears niqaab they went around to the otha side of the car so that we cud eat n she cud lift the niqaab up n eat properly.... now thats wat u call manners!...
    so... we ate....n after that jus sat around n dint do much....saw a fox....got a lil scard! lol...
    afta that we decided to go to sleep.....but at the same time i jus wanted to sit n look at the moon...its so beautiful mashaAllah n it looks so beautiful the way the moonlight reflects off the white rocks and looks.....like its been covered in a layer of icing in a way.... n like its so amazing to see the way the rocks change colour at different times of the day....cos wen we 1st got into the desert...cos it was nearing sunset the rocks looked a little pink....n as it got darker they looked a little blue n then a shade of grey/silver...its amazing to see all the changes!!!
    nw...wher was i... yes... we went to sleep....without blankets..only to realise it was freezing...so ended up askin for a blanket... n slept a little...altho it wasnt completely comfortable.... set my alarm for 4am....wantd to see the sun rise....!
    so... actually DID wake up for sunrise...n omg...i climbed the rock!!!*big grin*..im so proud of me!lol... n me n sobi watched the sun rise! subhanAllah...wat can i say??? its so amazing to see the way the night turns into night??!! its like... that surah...i think its nabaa'....the one that says sumthin abt Allah creatin the night as a blanket or a cover and the day as something for livelihood....and omg....it jus really makes u think....like while i was sittin there on that rock...on my right there was the moon...n to my left the sky was changin colour n the sun was appearing and subhanAllah wat can i say??? it was jus the most amazing thing i hav ever seen!! it was like feeling like we were in two completely different worlds! like on one side the moon was still hightlighting the rocks and on the otha side was the same....but by the sun.....!! i jus dnt hav words for it all... im jus glad that alhamdulillah i went there n saw that....n didnt sleep thru it...which was wat i was really tempted to do....but then i thot to myself....wen am i eva gna b able to see the sun rise in the white desert eva again! n alhamdulillah im glad i did get outa that tent wen i did!!!
    afta that didnt really do much... we waited till the 2 guys woke up....refused breakfast... went for a little walk around the desert while they ate n had tea....tidied up camp.....n then set off on our way to farafra.....! got stuk in sand a coupla times....but its all part of the experience....
    it was sweet cos aslam apologised "i am sorry" in a very arab accent....n like we werent too fussed anyway...well i wasnt.... i was havin fun! lol!!
    we got to farafra maybe arnd 9ish...in the mornin that is...n lol...i totally forgot to mention this...its so weird...cos we dnt realise that we tke our nationality as a given....like weneva we got to borders theres always sum kinda police who ask who we are n wher we're goin.... n like evrytime they think we're arab...cos supposedly i look egyptian...n they cant comprehend the idea of a niqaabi in the uk....lol...
    so anyways... we got to farafra...cheked into al badawiya hotel n slept....well i did! lol!! was sooo knackerd! so slept for a while n then afta wakin up left to do a little exploring..
    1st stop was al badr's art museum thingy- an artist from farafra who's very creative...very imaginative and is pretty good at art mashaAllah! like he did this really wiked arabic calligraphy bird which said bismillahi rahmaan ir raheem - which means "in the name of Allah the most gracious most merciful"...n it jus looked so cool....n like he was so fascinated that we were two muslim gurls travellin on our own n stuff(muslim travellers dnt seem to be very common in egypt!)...he was nice enuff to invite us to his house for lunch!!! so we agreed n went to his place....talkd to him a while....spoke to his family...well sobi did most of it...im totally unconfident wit my spoken arabic so jus took the back seat! lol!n yeh thats it really.... we went to see the palm groves which farafra is famous for....they were beautiful and also stepped in sum mud...the full natural experience!! my trainers n socks got soaked! lol! and umm...yeh thats it really....well bad took us to a coupla otha places....one was his guest house...which he decorated himself.... was really nice..cos on each wall he'd etched out mayb a story from the Qur'an or sumthin that he felt represented his feelings, his mind and his dreamz....it was pretty creative....but best was anotha piece of calligraphy wich said "patience is the key to happiness" wich in arabic was sumthin like sabr al miftaah lil farg....or sumthin along them lines (yes yes my arabics crap!)
    ummm... i think thats all that happend...cos we went to anotha house that belonged to badr n then went back to the hotel....went for a walk to the town centre n got stared at....went back to the hotel... had dinner....n slept....
    woke up the next mornin n got ready to catch the coach for the 10 hour journey back to cairo...(Fun!)..... ended up sittin next to a cute old man who i cudnt understand very well...lol...bless him....n then moved to sit wit sobi aftawards...was nice....cos like we didnt really do much.....n it was jus nice seein all the desert all over again....but backwards..! lol...altho i did get sick of it afta a while cos like theres only so much plain desert u can take in!....
    got to cairo n hoped we cud get a train back...only to find out next available train was in 2n half hrs....so took a shared taxi instead....n yep....am back to alex now! all tired and tanned!....
    lol thats sumthin i dint realise till today...went into uni n like all the muslim lot commented on my tan!lol...dint evn realise i'd gotten a tan....well....they all said i looked refreshed n well....so its a good sign! lets jus hope i dont get too dark....
    luxor n aswan to look forward to inshaAllah...not sure if it'll b this weekend....as sobi isnt feelin too well....we'll jus wait n c tomoro..
    had a nice day today tho....spent it wit tessa....shes scarin me....shes gone shoppin mad!!! lol!! she bought two gorgeous pairs of trousers....ones orange!! *big grin* mashaAllah and a nice hijab too!!!!
    ummm thats it really...
    think iv bloggd enufff...
    ooh....before i forget....one last thing...!! omg i saw one of the most gorgeous guys....and he sooo wasnt arab....he looked indian...he had pretty eyes...a little too long hair for my likin...he was carryin a guitar case of sum sort...n he looked a little lost in cairo!! he jus looked soooo adorable!!! .... k me's gna shurup nw....
    am off for defo nw...
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
     
    April 13

    ...thoughts ...

    av u'll kno wat im on abt if i say im still feelin pretty low....jus got so much crappy stuff goin on in my head right now....dnt think its appropriate to put it all dwn ere... lol...think thats why i spent so much today...a little bit of retail therapy....bought a pretty little dangly thingy for my phone...n a necklace... i dnt usually buy things unless ive thought abt it a hundred million times over before actually decidin.... but today...i thot wat the heck...if it makes me happy...im gna buy it...lol.... didnt really work did it...
    maybe its cos of this song im listenin to.... its so tru wat they say... that like music can affect ur mood...like u kno hw ppl say that if u listen to rock music u feel quite "grr" n stuff like that.... i guess its tru....like dependin on the type of music it is n the lyrics...music can really affect ur mood...like im sure i wasnt feelin as shitty as i am right now...but wen u hear lyrics like "ur the reason that the sun comes up at dawn, cos bein without u i cant survive"..... doesnt that jus make u feel depressed.....or maybe im jus mentally messed up....cos its a sappy song....
    cud this b the reason its said that music is haraam in islaam? cos of the affects it can have on u?? cos like truthfully...ive neva felt like ive been really "affected" by music... but now i think abt it... yeh i guess its tru....like a lotta time wen ive felt a little low...or a little angry ive made sure im listenin to sumthin which might hav lyrics which match upto the feelings....or sumthin that might make me feel a little better...or even sumthin that might jus help push that emotion along a little...like listenin to sumthin really sad jus to make myself cry.... like is that really wat musics all about?? to, in a way, dictate ur feelings.... make feelings and thoughts restricted to a certain type of music, to a certain kind of genre wen it cmes to lyrics... but then think abt hip-hop n rnb music...like wat does that say abt their mentality...i mean come on..jus listen to the lyrics of songs like 50 cents "candy shop" and "just a little bit"....like truthfully...wat kinda message is that sendin out to the youth of today...no wonder i feel like im so much less "corrupt" than a lotta people...theres so much exposure to things and topics that were taboo up until a point....and now..it jus feels like everything...and too much, is out in the open....its like children are growin up too fast...theyre exposed to so much vulgarity and parents dont seem to do anythin abt it either....like it makes me shudder to think wat the youth is gona b like in 5 yrs time...why 5...even 2... is there even gona b such a thing as "childhood" any more.... children are growin up too fast! n it scares me!!....like to think of it in the long run.... i wudnt want my kids to grow up in such a society....n truthfully... all that i have mentioned, is a very western mentality.... like ive not seen anything...or much like it here in egypt...n thats anotha thing that worries me.... wen i get bak to london...its gona b seein all that again.... its not a nice thought...
    anyways im gona stop here for now... ive got an early start tomorro..off to cairo and from there on to fayyoum...yay!...
    so till nxt week
    inshaAllah i will b back
    ttfn
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    lol...

    bit ov an old story this is....happend a few days ago.... maybe sunday methinks..but i was jus tellin amina abt it...n thot..hey...funny story...lemme blog it...lol
    so...here goes...

    my flatm8 decided to make roast chicken.

    n we realised we dint hav sweetcorn...n it tastes nice wit sweetcorn.

    so i was like okay im gna go pop dwn to the shop to get sum.thinkin yeh its gna b easy...they'll kno wat sweetcorn is.

    omg was i wrong!.they kept pointin at chocolates!!!he was like "kinder?".n im like noooooo its a vegetableeee.small....yellow....in a tin!(all this in arabic tho)

    n then i saw this 'trendy' lookin yung arab in there
    n assumed he'd kno english.so i goes.u speak english.n hes like yeh.so im like u kno wat sweetcorn is then.n he looks at me like im gone mad.n hes like "sumthin sweet" to the guy in arabic.n im like nooooooooooooooooooooooooo not sweet! grrrrrr

    was goin round in cricles.

    was mad.

    in the end.i gave up.

    no sweetcorn

    end of story

    xx

    argh!

    me's annoyed..... wit British Airways 1stly....im gna hav to go to the office on monday inshaAllah cos it seems like the ticket i booked is a non existent flight....now wat the f*** is that all about?? heres me thinkin woopee im goin home 3rd june...n my dads tellin me there is no such flight!! i evn checked the website....n its the same thing...ufffffffffff!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrr.... stupid idiots messin things up for me... tutz ...
    well....off to fayyoum inshaAllah tomorrow....a weekend of travel...cant wait!
    umm not much else to say
    xxx

    prayer for the stressed...lol...

    i love this!
     
    A Prayer For The Stressed!!
    Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
    the courage to change the things I cannot accept,
    and the wisdom to hise the bodies of those people I had
    to kill today because they pissed me off.
     
    And also, help me to be careful of the toes i step on
    today as they may be connected to the ass that i may have
    to kiss tomorrow.
     
    Help me to always give 100% at work...
    12% on Monday
    23% on Tuesday
    40% on Wednesday
    20% on Thursday
    5% on Fridays
     
    And help me to remember...
    When I'm having a really bad day,
    and it seems that people are trying to piss me off,
    that it takes 42 muscles to frown and
    oly 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me!
     
    Amen
     
     

    k thats it...

    k thats it for today....pretty tired...dnt kno why... day was okayish...
    had a little bitova problem wit mates flat whos not in egypt at the mo... had to go sort things out....well truthfully i dint do nothin...T&T did all that.... but jus helped move things out n stuff... was hectic tryna remember wat things were in the flat from before n wat wasnt... alhamdulillah got things sorted....
    went grand cafe later on... was "Triskali"s b'day so we had a lil get together...went well alhamdulillah...jus feel pretty sick now...
    ummm....not much else...
    uni in the mornin...
    sobi mentioned goin travellin ova the weekend....thinkin of Fayyoum...hope it goes well inshaAllah.... Oasis abt 4 hrs from Cairo.... cool! ... think i need sumthin to get my mind off things
    miss *sum1*...oh well....neva mind... nt gna bother... they not evn been in touch...
    neways
    me out
    tired...
    night....
    xxxxxxxxx

    coupla poems...

    heres a coupla poem-y thingys ive written....jus thot i'd share em...cos truthfully...cant b bothered to blog today....feelin pretty shite...(yes avan im finally puttin in that poem u wanted me to put in..lol)
    well ere goes...
    theyre untitled...cant think of titles for em.....
     
    poem 1:
     
    i dnt kno why tears fall from my eyes wen i think of u.
    maybe its becoz i kno we cn neva b..
    or maybe its becoz i feel u neva loved me the way i love u...
     
    im beginnin 2 understand tht lifes gta go on.
    uve chosen ur path, n ive gta find mine.
    i kno u'll b ok without me,
    but do u kno that i'll b fine?
     
    i dnt kno wats goin on anymore..
    feels like im losin u..
    losin wat we had, n the memories too...
    did u eva love me as much as i love u?...
     
    sumtimes i feel like evrythin was all a lie..
    cn u assure me that its all jus in my mind?...
    or am i holdin on2 sumthin tht was neva there...
    a dream, an illusion...that wasnt mine to share??...
     
    lol ok... that was poem one...
     
    here goes poem 2....its kinda short...:
     
    jus becos
     
    jus becos i dnt tell u that i miss u...
    doesnt mean i dnt
    jus becos i dnt tell u i love u...
    doesnt mean my feelings hav changed.
    theres sum things wich arent said
    but understood by the heart...
    maybe u jus didnt understand me...
    jus maybe...
     
    April 11

    the hidden fact...

    Subject: The Hidden Fact - Quran - a must read

    Subhanallah....what a lovely story!!

    An old man lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern kentucky with his

    young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen

    table reading his Quraan .

     

    His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in

    every

    way he could. One day the grandson asked, "Papa, I try to read the

    Quraan

    just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget

    as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Quraan do?"

     

    The Grandfather quietly turned

    from putting coal in the stove and replied, "Take this coal basket down

    to

    the river and bring me back a basket of water." The boy did as he was

    told,

    but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house.   The

    grandfather laughed and said, "You'll have to move a little faster next

    time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again.

     

    This

    time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned

    home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to

    carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead.

    The old man said, "I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket

    of

    water. You're just not trying hard enough," and he went out the door to

    watch the boy try again.

     

    At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his

    grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak

    out before he got back to the house.

     

    The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he

    reached his grandfather the basket was again empty.

     

    Out of breath, he said, "See Papa, it's useless!""So you

    think it is

    useless?" The old man said, "Look at the basket. "The boy

    looked at the

    basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It

    had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside

    and out.

     

    "Son, that's what happens when you read the

    Quraan. You  might not understand or remember everything, but when you

    read it, you will be changed, inside and out. That is the  work of  Allah

    in our lives." 

    for all those who think...

    for all those women who complain abt bad hair days.... dnt think women who wear hijab hav it any easier!!!
    i had the worst bad hijab day eva today....felt like i wanted to rip it off at one point.... tutz i dnt mean it like that...like its such a nice pretty brown hijab...but its like different in size n stuff so it was a little too flowy so it kinda annoyed me at points wudnt stay propa....but it matches wit my hooded jilbab so well alhamdulillah!!....k methinks im gna hav 2 use a lot more safety pins from now on..... lol
    well thats all i really wanted to complain about...lol...
    xx

    grrr am annoyed wit me!

    hate it wen this happens...log onto msn on invisible mode... n see that sum1s online.... decide to change status to online.... n by then.... theyve disapeard!! ok... well it wasnt exactly the case.... i went online frm my phone earlier on...on invisible mode..n saw sum1 was online...hoped that they'd stil b online by the time i got bak home n logged on2 msn ... but jus my luck... dint happen!!
    oh well
    been thinkin a little too much lately... i really shud stop doin that...jus upset myself ova nothin.... n decided im not gona tell anyone who asks me again when im comin home....cos i jus cant b bothered...yes i CANT b bothered! u wanna kno wen im bak....??? well i'll think abt it n let u kno afta im bak in london! OKAY???? or depends on who and how nicely u ask.... be NiCe....(maybe tell me hw much ur missin me [yeh right!] lol)
    ThAnKuVeRyMuCh
    iM ouTa eRe
    xx
    April 10

    hmmmmmmm

    chattin to lil bro at the mo... hes so cute! lol..hes same old... one word ansas...lol.... im lookin forward to that wen i get bak home(!) lol... joke... well...atleast he aint blocked me... good enuff....
    oh one otha thing... felt like i was kinda rude to bubbles the otha day....wasnt able to chat to her cos of otha things.. jus wanna say sorry sis!
    am off nw...
    xx

    9 Things I Hate About Everyone

    this is funnnyyyyy
     
    1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?
    2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.
    3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?
    4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!
    5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
    6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?
    7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.
    8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?
    9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

    30 Things Guys Want Girls To Know!!

    this was sent to me in an email... n thot...this is cute!...lol
     
    1. We're not as perverted as you think we all are.
    2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-boyfriend IS a LOSER.
    3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.
    4. Don't argue with us when we call you beautiful.
    5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes around comes around.
    6. We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out with you.
    7. Don't go into detail about your period. It scares us.
    8. If you have cramps and we ask you what's wrong, just tell us it's that time of the month and nothing more.
    9. If you really liked us for us, you would let us think that our mustache, beard, or sideburns looked cool.
    10. We never shave our legs. So get over it.
    11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup on us. It's just wrong............
    12. Don't make bets about us, because one of your friends will tell us, if you don't.
    13. When we tell you that you're not fat, believe us.
    14. We absolutely do not care about the Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98 Degrees, or what any other guy looks like for that matter.
    15. We may not be able to pee accurately all of the time, but at least we can stand up and go pee.
    16. Just cause you think you're always right, doesn't mean that you don't have to apologize when you do something "wrong."
    17. You expect us to say and do sweet things for you, but it would be nice if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know that you love us.
    18. We can't always be spontaneous, so try to help us make the plans sometimes.
    19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy for you, cause you might get what you wish for.
    20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see what we would say". That's just mean.
    21. Never pretend like you are going to break up with us and laugh when we believe you.
    22. Pamela Anderson's boobs aren't fake anymore, but we like yours better anyway.
    23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who don't want a relationship.
    24. PMS is not an excuse.
    25. If you want us to put the seat down when we're done, you should put it up when you're done.

    26............ Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend was. That doesn't turn us on.

    27. And always remember: The way to a guys heart is through his stomach..... and maybe....oh nevermind.

    28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You might be that comfy with your friends, but to us it's just wrong.
    29. We always notice how funny it is after your rip out our heart, stick it down our throat and still want to be friends.

    30. And last but not least: We know you're not always right, but we'll pretend like you are anyway.

    ...

    think ive jus been havin on of them shitty days... one wher thers highs n lows.... n more lows than the highs... dnt really kno wats botherin me...wish i cud put my fingr on it...but got a lotta thots runnin thru my mind...
    ooh yeh... forgot to mention....got exam results today... did okayish... well good enuff...dint think i'd do that well eitha considerin hadnt revisd or anythin..... 30 out of 50 = 60% so.. yeh im happy... i think.... to think hw i cudv dun if i'd revisd!
    gtg nw... mite b bak later...
    xx