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3月15日 who needs enemies...mustafa was right abt the blog tht was here...thanx musty for the advice!! :)
that is why ive now deleted wat was once here..
3月9日 ProcrastinationIm procrastinating...again!!
i should be finishing this application form...but i seem to be drifting...lol
ive just discovered snake on gmail!!! lol...cool or wat!?! im soooo not gonna get this done!!
aargghh!!
gtg
xxx A Story Worth Reading السلام عليكم ورحمه الله وبركاته
(May the peace of Allah descend upon you and His Mercy and Blessings)
A Story Worth Reading: I got this via email from a friend, thought it would be good to share... :) Since last night my young son has been unwell. When I got back from Work this evening I decided to take him to hospital despite my exhaustion.
There were many waiting; perhaps we will be delayed by more than an hour. I took my number and sat down in the waiting room. There were many faces, young and old, but all silent. Some brothers made use of the many booklets available in the waiting room.
Some of those waiting had their eyes closed, while others were looking around. Most were bored.
Once in a while the long silence was broken by a nurse calling out a number. Happiness appears on the one whose turn it is, and he gets up quickly; then silence returns.
A young man grabbed my attention. He was reading a pocket-sized Qur`an continuously; not raising his head even once. At first I did not think much about him. However, after one hour of waiting my casual glances turned into a deep reflection about his lifestyle and how he utilizes his time. One hour of life wasted! Instead of making benefit of that hour, it was just a boring wait. Then the call for prayer was made. We went to prayer in the hospital's Masjid. I tried to pray close to the man who was reading the Qur'an earlier in the waiting room. After the prayer I walked with him. I informed him of how impressed I was of him and how he tries to benefit from his time. He told me that most of our time is wasted without any benefit. These are days that go from our lives without being conscious of them or regretting their waste.
He said that he started carrying the pocket-sized Qur`an around when a friend encouraged him to make full use of his time. He told me that in the time other people waste he gets to read much more of the Qur`an than he gets to read either at home or in the masjid.
Moreover, besides the reward of reading the Qur`an, this habit saves him from boredom and stress.
He added that he has now been waiting for one and a half hours. Then he asked, when will you find one and a half hours to read the Qur`an?
I reflected; How much time do we waste? How many moments of our lives pass by, and yet we do not account for how they passed by?
Indeed, how many months pass by and we do not read the Qur`an? I came to respect my companion, and I discovered that I am to stand for account and that time is not in my hand; so what am I waiting for?
My thoughts were interrupted by the nurse calling out my number; I went to the doctor. But I want to achieve something now.
After I left the hospital I quickly went to the bookshop and bought a pocket-sized Qur`an. I decided to be mindful of how I spend the time.
If this information is beneficial to you, then please do forward it to your friends and relatives. Our Prophet (SAW) said; 'Whoever guides or directs to good, then he gets the same amount of blessing (reward) as the one who does it'
The Prophet (SAW) also said 'Pass on knowledge from me even if it is only one verse' 3月8日 “Amazing is the affair of the believer”inshaAllah im hoping to add a few more from time to time...just think its good to put up a reminder once in a while :)
On the authority of Abu Yahya Suhaib bin Sinan (May Allah be pleased with him) it is related that the Prophet (Peace be upon him) said,
“How amazing is the affair of the believer. There is good for him in everything and that is for no one but the believer. If good times come his way, he expresses gratitude to Allah and that is good for him, and if hardship comes his way,
he endures it patiently and that is better for him.” [Muslim] 3月6日 My eyes hurt.......and so does my head...ive had this headache since morning n its not going away!! :(
dont kno wat to do...not been feelin too good..wasnt giving 100% at work either...it was just like i cudnt evn stare at the screen..
just like hw my eyes are hurting nw from lookin at the computer...
im off..
xxx 3月2日 :(im upset today...
i dnt kno why...well actually...i kinda do...im just fed up of work...it just keeps upsetting me..ive had enough :(
the pains at the back of my ear are back...so that doesnt help either...and im having sleeping problems :( doesnt help when u have to wake up early to leave for work...i cant even seem to wake up nowadays!!!
ive been avoiding picking up my phone since ive been home from work...i dont want anything to do with work right now...i dont see why i should...im not AT work...so why should i have anything to do with work!! ughhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
im sick of itttttttt!! its like even on weekends...im called up from work...and lately..manager seems to make last minute decisions about training and stuff..which just takes the pee!!! its like im supposedly doing some kinda training tomorrow...i dont even kno wat its about!!! aarrgghhh!!!!
im jus gna try n look for another job now...or sumthing....
im off
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2月23日 Tired...I am sooooooooo tiredddddddd....i dnt understand wats wrong with me..
im havin trouble sleepin...wich means i cnt wake up on time, which then results in me arrivin at work late EVERYDAY!!!
uff its sooo cold....n im wasting time sittin in front of the tv....watchin banoo mai teri dulhann...loool...its soooo overdramatic!!! just watchin it for the sake of it cos mum n dad are sat here :)
think i might head off to bed soon...
work was pretty quiet today..i think im REALLY losing patience with people nowadays..i cant take it anymore!!! really takes the pee!!! uffff!!! i dont mean people i work with....i mean the people that call in to make donations/enquiries....sometimes i feel like they speak to me as if im stupid...n others...its like i think to myself...how many bl**dy times do i have to say something!!?? its like they just arent paying attention....as if that wasnt already the case in real life with people face to face...it is now also the case with people over the phone!!! aarrgghhh!!!! :(
im gettin annoyd cos im thinkin of doin a course...but cant seem to find the right things...im soooo crap at lookin for things on the internet...lol...im a bit useless...
Works kinda stressin me out...its nt like ive got loads to do...but jus seems to be drivin me mad....ive been made temporary supervisor cos T's gone on annual leave...i stupidly really upset her before she went...i REALLY didnt intend to upset her...it jus kinda happend..n i still feel quite guilty/upset abt it...cos it really shudnt have happened...especially considerin shes like a sis to me... :( hope she cmes bak from her leave n things are okay inshaAllah...
otherwise things are k alhamdulillah...things are goin well... :)
anyways...im off..
nitey nite xxx 2月8日 lolokay...so i was a bit of a drama queen in the last blog...well i really did think i'd thrown it all down the loo in an instant...lol...but alhamdulillah that wasnt the case...so me is a lil happy happy...
still ill...which i do not not notttt like!! went to emergency GP the otha day...lmao...they were crap..if anything the doctor scared the crap outa me by sayin i cud hav TB! lol...oh as well as spelling my name in suchhh a stupid way...wich i was REALLY annoyed abt cos i spelt my name over the phone PHONETICALLY!!! so how the hell can u get M for mother and N for november mixed up and A for Alpha and E for Echo wrong!? i wanted to slap em!!!
ive spent a lot of time today applying for jobs...need a change in my life and soon...gettin a lil bit sick of the same thing....inshaAllah hope whatever happens happens for the best....ppl readin this...make duaa!! :)
anywayyyyyyyy...
im gna go nw...
xxxx 2月1日 ugh...im tired...ill n depressed...cant believe i was so stupid...if i had sent one email ONE email...i wouldnt b feelin this low right now...
wont be surprised if i get kicked outa work on monday...im such a bloody genius (!)...well done me(!)...
i dnt wana go into details...but lets just say ive effed up BIG TIME n knowin my manager...it might just be a good excuse to get rid of me...
i wanted to blog today after ages...n thought it'd b a nice one...but then checked work emails n things went downhill from there...
 Its been a good three months since my last entry...why?..well cos work seems to have taken over my life...and i hardly cme online nw...
Went for Hajj in December...so thats another month gone...n been living eating n breathing work since i got back...so much so that im still not fully recovered from it...
anyway...im nt in the mood nw...so maybe sum other time..
xx 10月21日 gonna keep this short....im gonna keep this short evn tho theres been soooooo much thats happend since the last time i blogged...
cnt even remember wen the last time was....hmmm...
things have been really busy...and hectic...ramadhaan went faster than expected...there was me thinking its gna b really long n slow cos the days were longer...but subhanAllah...30days felt like 3...it was sooooo busy at work...training new staff...n jus being sooo busy in general...mashaAllah it was busy...wich means we generated a lot in donations...mashaAllah.. :)
had a few ups n dwns..but thts expected...had 6 live appeals...well i think it was 6...lost count!! had 2on Islam Channel...then on DM Digital, PTV, Noor Tv, Channel S and Al Hiwar...so yes.very busy....n omggg...i had like 2 mins of "fame" if u cn call it that...more like "put on the spot n looked like an idiot" lol...
It was during the live appeal with ISL, we had cameramen in the office..n brother T was talking away n suddenly...i was put on the spot!! :( was sooooo embarassing!! didt kno wat to do or say!! :( oh well...lol..glad not many ppl saw....well i hope not!!!
Eid came n went...didnt evn realise that....Eid neva feels like Eid...went to work all glammed up...loool....
Not much else...jus preparing for a few things...trying to save money...sometimes wishing the earth would just open up n swallow me...ugh...yeh i still get them feelings...n there have been points where ive just wanted to walk out of work n neva cme bak...but end of the day...i cant complain...i do actually quite like my job...yes yes..sad i am....
Things with D didnt end up working out...we stopped speaking a few days after Eid i think...oh well...it wasnt meant to b...kinda given up on things on tht front..just cant b botherd anymore...
Im gna miss the girls at work...its really quietened down already...lol..i say girls..cos there was only one new guy tht we took on for ramadhaan...mashaAllah such lovely girls....but inshaAllah hope tht we do stay in touch....
i miss Tess...dont kno why..its been ages since we spoke...n its been my fault tht ive not kept in touch or made an effort... so Tessi...if u read this...i miss u!! :(
Im gna go now...laptop gna die...
so till next time
xxxx 8月30日 Annoyeddddddughhhh i swear...if anyone is thinking of gettin a contract with the Three network...i have one word...DONT!!!!
Their customer service is terrible...ur put thru to some freshy who doesnt even understand what ur saying...jus sayin "yes i understand ma'am.." wen she doesnt really give a sh*t...all they really care about is making sales n pretending they care!!!.....yet they cant really do anything for u...NOTHING!!!..they offer u sh*t phones tht jus look good...n wen u tell em tht uve had probs with previous handsets they "reassure" u that u wont have the same problms with the new one...bullsh*t!!! oh and..they can offer me a new phone...the same handset!! wat blo0dy use is that!! to have the same phone given to u...for u to have the same problems...and oh yeh...u gotta pay for it too!!!
wish i cud jus go n cancel the contract..but im bound to it till july next yr!!! ugghhh!!!!!!!!!
i hate Three with a vengeance!!!
ramadhaan startin within the next coupla days inshaAllah..
have no idea wats goin on...diff masjids sayin diff things abt wen its gna b...
 lookin frwrd to it tho!! works gna b hecticcccccccc....but inshaAllah it'll go well...
anyway...im off...
Ramadhaan mubarak everyone!!
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8月11日 Tired..confused..?SubhanAllah!!! time has gone waaay too fast!!! a few more weeks n it will have been a yr since i started working at IR...
who'd hav thunk that a yr dwn the line i'd still b working ther..?? well i didnt expect it..there was me thinking tht it was jus a temporary 1month job...only to have been kept on...n luckily - or unluckily...im nt too sure which...i didnt or havent found/got any other job since...oh well...
i kno ive complained a few times abt my job...but i do love it!...a lot of ppl wud think it wud b kinda boring...but knowing tht the job makes a difference to so many lives around the world...kinda gives u tht warm fuzzy feeling inside...it might just be "answering the phone" to some people...but for the needy people around the world...we as "customer service agents" are the first point of contact to get donor's money to them to make their lives better...
last week and this week we'll b training the new ramadhaan staff..it feels like last yr all over again...the excitement n the buzz of new ppl...n welcoming the month of ramadhaan with open arms!...
im quite excited abt ramadhaan this yr...im nt sure why...considerin T (my supervisor) told me we'll b havin LOADS of live appeals over ramadhaan...but tht was part of the buzz last yr n inshaAllah it'll b the same this yr too
MashaAllah the new bunch are gr8! theres sum really nice sisters n lol only one brother..hehe...poor thing...the girls out-done the boys!! hehe!!
I didnt tell anyone...but i had a driving test last week...n guess wat?!...surprise surprise....i failed again!! lol...oh well...as they say..Qadr Allah...it wasnt meant to be...plus..bay parking on a hill is NOT easy!! (lol...u mustve guessd...thts wat i failed on!)...so methinks im gna mayb and thats MAYB try booking my next test for Wanstead n not Chingford...depending on if im okay with the roundabouts now... i think (alhamdulillah) im a bit more confident with roundabouts now...but then again...tht was chingford...dnt kno abt wanstead..oh well...got a lesson on weds...we'll c then...
Z came to see us before she left for Syria last week
 seein her for them few mins...well abt half an hr was worth it!! i'd really misd her...its soo funny...cos she got so fed up n bored of work/the office...she was jus itchin to leave...lol...bless her...i hope shes well n enjoyin it in Syria...im jealous...but in a gud way...ooh i gotta set a reminder on my phone for tmrw...i gota mke a call tmrw abt sum information..
neway...am gna go nw...kinda tired...i was confused n still am...thts jus cos ive heard a whole load of different information regarding the 15th of Shabaan...some ppl sayin u shudnt do xtra ibaadat on tht night...mums tellin me u shud..im reading things all over the place thts completely contradicting! im sooo confused!!
 if anyone comes across this blog n has sum info..plssss let me know!!!
im gna go pray Isha now..n then go sleeeeeeeppppp...lol..ive been sleepin more lately...
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8月4日 i need to go into hiding...or something...i need another holiday....
i wanna b anywhere but here...but at the same time..i'd rather be home than anywhere else...
does that make any sense watsoever?
oh who cares?
nothin makes sense anymore...or atleast at the moment...
jus feels like everything is everywhere..and im not sure exactly where im standing...
or if im standing at all...
its a limbo state...so maybe thats more floating?...lol...me n float? riiiiite....
cant remember wen it was, but chatted to S online...gud news...a lil one on the way inshaAllah... :) mashaAllah..happy for S...always wanted a kid...got broody even b4 i got to that stage!! didnt kno guys cn get broody! lool...oh well...im happy for em...hey im gna b an aunty....nooooooooo...i dnt like the thought of bein called "aunty"...mkes me feel old...eh who cares...i look 56 neway....
works been kinda stressful...well it was before i went off on holiday...Turkey! Istanbul!! :)...wenever ppl ask me how it was...im not too sure how to react...cos i dont really kno how it was...it was mixed feelings...like i think i was expectin a little too much...n it wasnt wat i was expecting...but then i didnt kno wat i was expectin in the 1st place...if tht mkes any sense at all??
the masaajid there were beautiful...altho a lot of them looked quite alike...the Blue Mosque isnt blue at all!!*shocked*... but was beautiful all the same..as was the Aya/Hagia Sofia (i can neva get tht rite).... the Cistern was wooooww...kinda eerie...cos it was like this underground water thing...but was really pretty...apart from the fact tht i was scared every step of the way in there..cos knowin me im so accident prone!! lol...alhamdulillah i didnt fall...but then no holiday is complete unless i fall...so i did...lol..ended up with a pretty painful bruise on the side of my foot...but hey..it was worth it...i fell gracefully..lol...cos it was like on a cobbled path downhill...i kinda fell n ended up layin on the floor! lol...my cushy tush might have saved me from the fall...but i was in a lot of pain after that!!!.... that was, alhamdulillah jus a coupla days before we came back :) ...
we saw quite a lot of things...i jus cant remember em al...there was the hippodrome...we went to the Asian side of Istanbul...took a tour on a horse and cart on one of the Prince's Islands...its soooo weird..cos once we sat on it...i had this flashback from Egypt wich i hadnt rememberd all this time...it was from Siwa wen we'd tkaen a coupla horse n cart type thingys...or was it one...i cant remember nw...to this really random place wich was infested with mosquitos...lol...but it was like a really pretty lookin river bank type place...n i think thre were loads of cats about too....so yeh...lol...that came to my mind.... we ate gianormous icecreams wich made me feel sick..and had a nice little meal as part of the tour sitting opposite 3italian dudes who made me laff by the things they were doin...apart from the time wen the one sittin opposite me was tryin to feed fish outside my window....grrr....!!
oh yeeh....me n maz had sum funny experiences with turkishh dudes...kept hearin "arab arab arab" being whispered not so quietly every time i'd walk past ppl...a lot of looks...i think appreciative ones..at my jilbabss...not at me...n loool...maz thinks this dude fell in love with me...lmao...he named me "flowers" pmsl...bless him..he was sweet tho...apart from the point where we were sat in the restaurant n he was standin behind mum n maz starin at me...booooyyy was tht uncomfortable!! :-S
anyway...we went on a cruise on the bosphorus...we missed half the guided tour...cos we didnt realise tht there was a tour..lol...n then went to the dolmabahce palace..wich was quite pretty...and...i cant remember wat else now...oh yehh....went to topkapi palace too...tht was pretty...it had sooo many differnt exhibitions...but we werent allowd to tke pics...there were things like Sultan's clothes n stuff...sum of em were gianormous!! i cud probably fit twice into some of em...n thats big!!...n then there were the holy relics...the teeth and beard of Rasul (saw) and Yusuf (as)'s turban...Musa (as)'s stick...Ibrahim (as)'s pot (or sumthin) and somethin tht belongd to Dawud (as) too..cnt remember nw...n oh yehh..there wre swords tht belonged to the sahaabah...wooowww...
i cnt remember anythin else now..
Saturday was Sal's mehndi..n Sunday was her wedding...i cnt believe shes married now :(...mashaAllah she looked so lovely though...lovely is an understatement, she looked gawjus mashaAllah!!... it was weird seein her all dressed up n stuff...but it was a lovely change...
things otherwise are k i guess...im sitting on an emotional rollercoaster at the moment...n im not too sure why...today has soooo not been a good day for me..ive been going mad abt things at work...gettin annoyed at people not doin things right...n then havin this one guy doing my head in for 22 mins abt a situation im not even aware of....it felt like i was goin round in circles and muy brain had become a complete mush by the time the conversation was over...i had to keep repeating myself to tell him that the issues he was talkin abt were things i couldnt personally deal with, and would have to be bought up with the worldwide HQ...and no matter how many times i would re-iterate this..he jus didnt want to listen!! n then they all say to me "why is it u always end up with the people who can talk for england!?" jus my luck i guess...
Zaynab came to see us today :) was sooo lovely seein her...shes off to Syria tomorro inshaAllah...i had missed her sooo much..jus that short period of time she was over...felt like she hadnt left....work isnt the same without her.... :(
i dont have much else to say apart from the fact that i am a little confused on some matters concerning a certain D.... i really dont know what to do...guess jus gta give it a lil more time n see hw things develop...i do miss D tho...its been 2weeks since we last spoke...D's in Dubai at the moment on holiday...but has been textin from there..so thts sweet...actually textin from a UK number...so its costin more!!...*feel guilty now* :(
better go...my bottom hurts now...and i beter get some sleep...work in the morning!!...
xxxx 7月13日 weird...its the only way i cn describe hw im feeling...
its weird..cos it was one of them feelings/things ive not felt for a while?....
i guess i havnt paid attention...or not really thought abt it today...but oh my days i was AWESTRUCK today!!!
i dont look at guys anymore..but on the train on the way home there was the nicest...n i mean NICEST guy/brother on the tube up until holborn on the picadilly line!!
i dont kno wat it was abt him..but he had like the softest/nicest features ive seen in a while...n i jus cudnt take my eyes off him!!!
tut...i kno thts a bad thing...but it was like i jus cudnt tear my eyes away....until a woman came n sat nxt to himn blocked my view!!! lol
anyway...i gt work in mornin...
gna go nw...think i shud shut up neway...lol
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7月6日 Tireddddddddddoh my daysssssss im sooooooooooo tiredddddd!!!
had such a hectic week....feels like its gone soooo fast that i cant remember all the details..but at the same time it feels like its been a long tme ago...
does tht even mke sense???
lets start from the friday last week (not the friday tht just went, but the friday before)....we went to gloucester...didnt get there till abt 9pm ish....cos we got stuk in so much traffic...but the journey wasnt too bad alhamdulillah..went to preston on the sunday for J's engagement...was nice...bit flash..but it was nice...hardly got any sleep that weekend...n got back to london on monday around 5ish i think it was....
Tuesday was back to work...but cos of the lack of sleep from the weekend i wasnt fully functioning at work...then had to be up at 4am the next mornin to be at work by 5:15 to go to Lake District!!...we didnt leave till 6:00...n arrived there just around midday...weather was nice alhmdulillah...
SubhanAllah those 3days went so fast....there were a few ups n dwns...but all in all it was a good experience...it was nice spendin time with people outside of the office...seein wat ppl are like...meetin staff from the b'ham office...n its soooo funny the way ppl act...especially the brothers!!! hehe...learnt somethin new i guess...lol
anyway...im nt really gna go into all details...lets jus say i didnt do the activity i'd signed up for....cos it involved water!!
 ...its nt my fault im hydrophobic....!! it realy completely utterly freaked me out!!! i cudnt even go in ankle deep...!! Alhamdulillah the sisters i was with were really understanding ... they didnt force me to do it...sumthin that did cheese me off tho was that sumone goes "is there such a thing as hydrophobia?" ...it annoys me cos sumtimes i wonder if they realise or notice that not everyones the same...and no..we're not all perfect...its like...i dnt kno hw to explain it...but it jus annoyd me...so now ive got it off my chest..think it shud b ok...n wont bother me as much...anyway...im gna end ere...so till next time
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7月5日 Kareem SalamaWiked nasheed...gotta listen to it....n i looove the vid...i kno ive added it to my fave links..but thot i'd add it here too!! :) xx 6月23日 Boredddddd.........omg..im bored....soooooo boreddddddddddddddddddddd....!!!!!!!!!!!!! (for once)
it feels like it was aaaages ago tht i saw Tessa (which was actually a week ago)....its like everytime we see eachother time goes too quick....n, as Tessa says when we're departing..."its just as tho we've jus had a day of uni n we'll b seein eachother in lecture tomorrow..." ... only to realise..thats not really the case... :(
had such a nice day tho...we went to eat at a lil restaurant, then had sheesha....n then starbucks...lol...then spent ages in Primark..lol...bumped into Tehmeena wich was nice too :) ... oh n loooll...we went into the Arabian Oud shop...sniffed a few perfumes...n had some sweets from there! hehe...oh n then bought sum perfume...no,not from arabian oud..cant afford that stuff...lol!!
ive spent most of my day at home today...lie...not most..ALL...i was supposed to go into work..but wasnt feelin too well...so spent some time emailing work...lol..jenab's leaving this week...so we were tryin to sort sumthin out for her...jus nt gettin anywher... uggh... :(
dads jus walked in..hes dancing to the "imperial" advert...lol..
ugghhhhh im sooooo boreddddd!!!!!......lol!
wud it b sad to say im kinda lookin frwrd to work tomorrow....lol
im gna go now...i cnt b botherd to type nw...lol
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6月9日 random ramblings...im back...
why im nt so sure...
guess cos i gt stuff on my mind n jus need to get it off my chest...
ive been thnkin...n i kno its impossible..but i really wish i cud turn back time...
why? cos theres things in my life tht i really regret..or things i wish neva happend...n if i had the chance to go back n change that...then i wud...
at the same time...i wish i cud turn back time n still be in egypt..kinda miss the freedom...tht mite sound weird...its nt like i abused the freedom...but its jus at that point in time...i didnt have anythin to worry abt...wen i wanted to go out...i cud..i didnt have to answer to anyone..or tell em when im gna b home...n its been so hard tryin to settle bak into normal life...im still findin it hard...sum ppl dnt seem to want to understand tht....its like...if uve always had freedom...its nt really sumthin ur gna miss...n yeh..i undastand tht if uve been independent for a while, it can b hard to settle back into a "normal" lifestyle tht u mite have been out of...jus sumtimes feel like its sum kinda competition...or like "im finding it harder to settle bak in than u did"...or more like "i dnt really wanna listen to what u say...wat i say counts"...
ive gotten to a point where im tryin nt to care anymore abt such petty things..but sumtimes these things do get to me...
today ive realised one thing today...i really need to stop dwelling in the past...man thts a complete contradiction to what i said at the beginning..one min i wanna go back in the past...the next min i dnt wana....its stupid...i kno...but hey..either way...the only thing i CAN do is stop dwelling in the past, cos its nt like i cn really turn back time...
uggh am sooo annoyed with myself...i wanna delete S from my msn list...but i hate deleting ppl!! evn tho it kills me to see him online...uggghhh i hate myselfff!!
actually...i jus done it...i cudnt take it anymore...guess its a good thing in some way...dnt have to see the display pic everytime he logs on... *fake smile*
neway...better get off...had otha things i wanted to go on abt..but its nearly maghrib time...so till nxt time i guess...
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6月5日 hmph...ive decided to have another rant today... a mini one at that...but still...a rant...lol...
i swear....ever since public transport/bus journeys were made free for under 16's its as tho all buses in london are infested with schoolkids!!! uggghhh!!! its sooo annoyin...i kno i kno...i shud consider..n think..yes once...ONCE upon a time...i was a kid too..but im pretty sure i wasnt as inconsiderate as kids nwadays....
its like this morning....im havin a mini internal fit..cos i kno tht, once again, im gna b late for work...yes yes...i kno..thts nt smthin to be proud of...but wat delays my journey more is the fact tht these school kids dnt understand the concept of "move to the back of the bus, use all the space available" its like theres me tryin to squeeze thruu nooks n crannys (wich is a mission n a half!) but atleast i make the effort of TRYIN to move dwn so others can get on the bus too...but nooooo...idiotic kids jus dnt care....i swear i wud sooooo love if they had to start payin again..!! then it wud be a HA in ur face! moment..cos then the bus wont b so crammed in the morning...
hehe..ok thts rant over...i feel a little better nw...ive been bottling tht up inside all day...well technically i havent...cos me n "Jenab" at wrk were tlkin abt it...
man im gna miss her...shes soooo lovely..really reminds me off Tessa in some ways.... i love em both!!
shes off to Yemen soon inshaAllah...its gna b weird without her...! we've made like a lil habit of runnin away from wrk togetha n munchin in different places...lol...we went n tried the caribbean cuisine one day...then to griller..n recently we've discovered an algerian cake shop/cafe! yummmm!! (not all in one day by d way lol)...Oh yeh...had a drivin test coupla weeks ago...wich..im sure u cn tell...i DIDNT pass...but oh well...3rd time lucky!? inshaAllah..lets hope so!!
its been so weird...its like everyone i kno is either gettin married...or havin a baby...well im happy for em all...cnt complain...i hav family n friends..wat more do i need...for nw atleast...
truthfully..dnt think i'd really wanna b in a relationship with anyone..ive seen wat it does to ppl...n i jus think..if thts wat bein in "love" does to u...then i dnt wana b in love...
Things otherwise have been okay...i think...its been an emotional rollercoaster of some type...somtimes dnt really kno if im comin or goin..or dnt kno wats goin on in my head..it gets confusing...and pretty depressing at times too..
i kno i shudnt admit to it...but i really miss S...i dnt kno...there was sumthin abt the friendship we shared tht i miss..the times we both "attempted" to speak in arabic lol...the jokes...the phone calls...the arguments even...but hey...thts life...n its gta go on...so *slaps self* bak to reality...
Saw Sal recently...more than once..must b my lucky month...i love seeing her..cos its like even tho we dnt see eachother often, its always like we only saw eachother last week....i miss her loads...n shes gettin married soon too inshaAllah...so one more friend gettin hitched...
i dnt kno...shud i b depressed abt these things? i dnt think i really am...i think i jus think too much....n sometimes let the little things get to me...
well inshaAllah gt a few things to look frward to...J's engagement in preston...the retreat with work at lake district...holiday...n coupla more weddings...thts Sal n Uzzi's....only thing im nt lookin frwrd to is gettin dressed up (fr the occasions) and gettin wet n mucky (on the retreat lol)....but inshaAllah it'll all be an experience...
oh theres one more thing i wanted to mention.... i kno there hav been times ive said negative things abt my parents...n i really regret it nw...feel like a bit of an idiot really...there are times when u realise tht ur parents really wud do anythin for u....n ive come to tht realisation jus recently....i dnt really wanna get into details...but i jus wanna say alhamdulillah i love my parents..theyve really helped me get thru this thing n i really dnt kno wat i wudve done without their help..i mite nt always show it...but i really do...
newayssssssss....i better get sum sleep... gt 8am start..woooo(!) lol
xxxxx 5月25日 Sunscreenthis is a song/track..if thts wat u cn call it tht i fell in love with wen i was in secondary school!! n sumthin jus made me remember it...so did a quik seatch n found the lyrics...if thts wat u cn call em....
its Baz Luhrmann's SUNSCREEN...
Wear sunscreen If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. (Brother and sister together we'll make it through Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there I know you've been hurting, and I know I've been waiting to be there for you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can. Everybody's free.) Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen… (Brother and sister together we'll make it through Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there I know you've been hurting, and I know I've been waiting to be there for you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can. Everybody's free.) I like this...dnt care if u dont :p
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